It was July 2nd, 2006, when Everything I used stopped working. I could no longer run from emotional immaturity. When I reflect it was the emotional immaturity that drove me into all those horrible unloving things, I felt about myself. It started when I was three years old in Mississippi in 1966. Some unfriendly people would always come after my brothers and me, saying, “catch that little one so we can use him as gator bait".
I did not know that this would hurt me emotionally as I grew, but it did. Growing up in South Central Los Angeles was/is a journey all in itself. Living in an Area where there were not as many opportunities as in other communities was mentally, physically, and emotionally draining. Fighting was a daily thing.
When I went to school I had to fight and coming home was more of the same. It appeared there was never a break from these conditions. The environment was just as detrimental as the feeling's going on inside.
After the United States Army in the Mid 80's Los Angeles was under siege by the Cocaine and Crack epidemic. It was an extremely dangerous time. This was also, the time when I experimented with drugs and alcohol. What I did not know was that I had/have a sensitivity to substances. It was this lack of information about my condition that led me to the 12-step communities, and for that I am grateful.
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